I'm a dreamer. Always have been, always will be. I decide what I want and go after it. Nothing stands in my way. This attitude has helped me to obtain the labels of "stubborn", "irresponsible", and "senseless". Call it as you see it...but I have a very happy life and there's very little I would change.
I have made many of my dreams come true...and am close to achieving more. I have a wonderful husband and beautiful children. I'm hoping to graduate nursing school soon. I plan to find a job in labor and delivery so I can see a miracle every day I go to work. Hopefully after I find that job, we can buy a house. And my graduation gift to myself will be a '66 Mustang. I dream of a day of never struggling to pay bills or having to tell my kids, "We can't afford it" when they ask for something basic. I dream of the day my family watches me cross the stage for my college graduation. My parents can finally be proud that both of their children went to college on their own free will and my children will see that it's never too late to reach your goals. Hopefully I will inspire them like my dad did me.
And when I'm not busy chasing my own dreams, I try to help others achieve their dreams. I'm a gestational surrogate. Yes, I carry babies for other people. I have been so blessed to have five wonderful children in my life. Three are my biological kiddos and two are my stepkids...and I couldn't have asked for better children to fulfill my life. I joke that I want everyone to suffer as much as I do, but that's a lie. Sure we have our moments, but being a mother is the most rewarding experience. And there are so many deserving women in this world unable to achieve this on their own. So, since my family is complete, why not help others complete their families? I have made some lifelong friends through surrogacy and I have brought three more beautiful children into the world through these journeys. Being a surrogate is the second best thing I've ever done, only following deciding to be a mother myself.
So this journal is born. I've had surrogacy journals in the past; but I thought it was time to start a general journal...one about ALL the dreams in my life. And hopefully I can document each dream here as it comes true. Stay tuned...as I plan for it to be a wild ride...