We'll be waiting for the window to open since a door was slammed shut in our faces.

So the surrogacy transfer was set for yesterday. We drove to Texas Thursday, stayed the night, got up early and headed to the clinic yesterday morning. We were all dressed in gowns and scrubs, ready to go for transfer, when we all got the most unexpected news. The embryologist came in and explained that none of the embryos were viable. We were all floored.

I just have to say that, as a surrogate, it's times like this that are devastating. I set out to help couples rid their heartache and achieve their dreams. Yet there are just some circumstances that I cannot make better...and this was one of them. While I know I will never hurt as much as they do, I truly feel like a little piece of my heart broke when I witnessed yet another challenge tossed before them. We had come so far, only to be right back at the beginning.

I'm not sure where we'll go from here. Obviously, they need time to think, talk, and sort feelings. I know I'm not going anywhere right now though and I'll be here for them when and if they decide they still need a surrogate. Life is so unfair.